Imagine you wanted to stop him eating out of the trash and he just struggles out of your grip and gives you a brutal kick...Σ(;ﾟДﾟ)

I'm skinny and have a pretty thin body. I also have long hair and this has caused people to confuse me for a woman a few times. In other words, you could say that I have a pretty androgynous appearance, so much so that when I look at myself in the mirror, I see a faggot. I see my body and think that I look gay. I'd like having broader shoulders and a slightly bulkier body. I'm tall and my face is sort of attractive, I really just need to get fit in order to look really good. Yesterday I talked to a friend and he agreed that he would coach me and tell me what kind of physical exercises I should do in order to look good.

So far so good right? It's pretty simple after all: I don't like how I look --> Workout regularly --> Achieve good looks. Well, here rises the issue and the reason I'm making this post.

Today I thought about it some more and realized that I actually don't mind looking like a fag that much. The reason why is because of my fetishes I'm pretty sure. I'm into BDSM, and when I watch porn it's almost always femdom-related. I'm really submissive in bed and most, if not all of my fantasies involve being dominated and/or humiliated in a way or another. I also don't have much strength. I'm a real wimp and that just makes me enjoy the role of the submissive even more. I really strive to be dominated as hard as possible, even physically. And my physique makes it pretty easy for others to dominate me. I won't compile a full list of my kinks, but I'll specify that I am into pet-play and feminization. Thanks to my slightly feminine body, I think I'd look really cute wearing a collar, cat ears and a maid dress.
The point I am trying to make is that in my sexual fantasies, I am okay with my body and even like it.

I also want to mention that there are a few fantasies where I see myself as a female rather than a male. I sometimes look at photos of male musicians and think that they look cute. And even outside of sexual fantasies, I feel like being a female would still make things so much easier for me, so I sometimes wish I were a woman. Maybe this is the reason I like looking androgynous?

But then I go outside, I see my peers, and I see how much more fit they are than me, how much better they look and how much better they are than me in any sort of physical activities. I look at them, and I feel like I kinda want to improve my body too. When I think about myself in most social contexts, I'd really prefer a bulkier body, I feel like I am far too thin right now. And it's weird, really weird. Outdoors I want to look like Dave Mustaine did in the early 90s, but then I think about it and indoors I am okay with the faggy body I currently have. I really can't decide which one I would prefer.

I wrote this post as some sort of rant or way to vent my feelings, but also to ask for help and know if there's anyone else who has found themselves in a similar situation, and what they did about it.

Maybe I shouldn't base my outer appearance on fetishes, but then again I like looking effeminate. But I also feel like I'd make a mistake by not getting in shape. Maybe there's some compromise between effeminacy and having good looks that I can get. Is it possible to look cute even if you're physically fit? Maybe I am just greedy, I want to look both girlish and also slightly manly. What do I do?

I feel like there's so much more I want to write, but this post is already unorganized and hard to read as it is, and I can't seem to write down any other word, so I'll leave it at this. Thanks for any support.

are vtuber memes banned?

i made this banner, a whole year ago. i thought it was funny at the time but then realized it fucking sucks including design wise, and i dont know what the password is to delete it

so i think it would be a good act to get rid of it to make everyone's lives better

R8
https://img.heyuri.net/b/koko.php?res=93084#p93116

Why is Kaguya on the soyjak party modlist?

やぁ！
このサイトの初見さんだよ！
ふたばよりも広告が少なくて見やすいですね！

Heyuri now mutually links with Ayashii World@Shinkai 10000, A Japanese Ayashii World instance with an emphasis on being underground
So feel free to (use some translator if necessary) chat with them ヽ(´ー｀)ノ
Link: https://bbs1.sekkaku.net/bbs/qovu13r58x/

one word story is b0rked

For much of human history, storytelling was the
exclusive privilege of designated elders, bookish scholars,
and ambitious artists. To create motion pictures, aspiring
filmmakers had to pay their dues at schools and in the
industry before getting their hands on a camera. The
internet opened storytelling to everyone, a development
long beheld as a great democratic revolution. But this also
has robbed nerds of their longtime monopoly on content
creation and gatekeeping.

When everyone is making
content, teens have extended the high school hierarchy into
their viewing habits: Why watch the weirdos when the cool
girls are showing off their shopping hauls and class clowns
are embarrassing their bros in epic pranks?

Thus the very
appeal of TikTok is its “mediocrity,” writes Vox’s Rebecca Jennings: “No one follows you because they expect you to
be talented. They follow you because they like you.”
Previous generations of lowbrow Americans may have
enjoyed passive consumption of Candid Camera and
America’s Funniest Home Videos, but Gen Z’s analogous
content is defining their generation the way the Beatles
defined the baby boomers and MTV defined Gen X.

What's up with that? Anyone else feels like this?

ＳＥＸより美味しい食べ物の方は大事だなｗ

Unfunny and annoying tiktok/i"funny" meme

https://img.heyuri.net/b/koko.php?res=92642#p92646

https://knowyourmeme.com/memes/i-am-living-in-your-walls

I believe it's a group of scammers, but the reason they use CP spam is that people nowadays are smart enough to report being scammed - but nobody's dumb enough to do that when they were trying to buy CP ( ´ω`)

Would you rather be addicted to crack or heroin? Are the withdrawals worse for crack or heroin? I hear a lot about heroin withdrawal being a living hell, but not much about crack.Is alcohol a hard drug? Can you pass drug withdrawals off as a period of illness?

What are your resolutions for the new year? I can't think of anything except be less negative and fix my sleep schedule.

I want to form an order or a cult, but I know not the least bit of handling people or manipulation techniques.

Drinking? Yes I drink.
Drink drink drink
Everything inside is dry and rough but I
Drink drink drink
I do and do and gag ang gag
Yet still I
Drink drink drink
I suffer and puke and suffer and puke
And drink and drink and drink and drink
And vomit and gag and vomit and gag
Good job?
I drink drink drink
I drink and gag and puke and drink and gag and puke and drink and gag and puke
What a disgusting life
I laugh at how terrible this has become

Mods please delete this whole thread, it will only bring these people back if it's still up

音ゲーは好き？