>>186731
used to

>>186765
>>186779
dont!!!!! dont do addictive stuff!!! stimulants often lead to permanent damage, after one time you may earn lifelong anhedonia and depression that gets more severe each time you take it and due to immesurable addiction you will murder to get more poison

>>186814
Nah. I agree crack is bad, but mostly because it's bad for your body. Stimulants themselves aren't addicting (and crack is alot more than just a "stimulant"). I think they are great.

>>186815
I was outside of space and time and outside of my senses and thought, far after reality became false and dissolved, far after the most insane hallicinatory universes broke down, where question of real and unreal, true and false, good or bad, dead or alive, me and anything was incorrect, that those terms are only real because humans are hardwired to unconditionally believe in them like a cult of lunatics and cannot escape those bounds and be free

After hallucinations had ended there was an infinitely huge and infnitely small space at the same time, without lights shapes sounds smells and heat because those are only real within a human experience and not ultimate experience
A mindspace where there was no boundaries between me and anything else, where the concept of separation of me and the entire fathomable existence was incorrect, where my thoughts were inseparable from me and I was the thoughts and thoughts, where I perceived the thoughts as the core of me and farthest external experience at the same time

I was formless and inexistent but something inside the mind that experienced was there, it was changing its form and becoming everyone and everything in all their separate and combined forms - like sometimes I was someone else, sometimes I was a few people at the same time, sometimes a whole group of people, animals, plants, stars, rivers, clouds, I was entire ecosystems entire societies and galaxies, I was entire foreign physics systems and entire made up languages, and entire imaginary galactic civilization systems in other universes with other physics and speaking other languages and I knew every rock and every living being inside of it
There was no myself, with the entire mind inside that skull being formless too, a bare dead computer with no attachment or memory of what it used to be

I realized that all experience is subjective and you must believe it is real so that it becomes real
You dont question your sight or hearing and you play along like their slave in belief they dont lie and that they in fact represent reality and not hallucinations and delusions

All experience is real if you believe it
False is true if you deem it true
What you dont know may just well not exist or even if it exists you are free to not care about reality ignoring it or denying it because you are allowed to, note that the universe never sent a lightning bolt punishing ignorant people because the universe is not about who is right or wrong, it doesnt punish rich or poor, it doesnt punish good and evil

The true understanding of existence is beyond human ability
Humans arent built to truly perceive reality because that is not the purpose of a human body and the universe doesnt reward or punish anything
All the hardships and rewards you perceive are only real within your human experience and nowhere outside of it
There is no punishment or reward for life, you received life just because and you will die just because, everything is like that
Reasoning and seeking it at all cost is a human concept and not a real concept, all thinking is a way for human to categorize parts of reality that are most relevant to its self perpetuation (staying alive and breeding), and not perceive it as it is, this survival mechanism is so efficient that people mistook it as being able to perceive everything and try to extrapolate it everywhere

Seeking meaning and reason is just a tiny ape being a tiny ape seeking something within its very limited biased attached partisan mind framework and not reality itself
In ultimate terms these arent applicable


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>>186633
And proud of it!

pretty much

A tree with gnarled wood will never be cut down; its timber is useless to the carpenter. Trees that have useful wood are hewed down for it, and hence do not live out their lifespan. All men know how useful it is to be useful, but few men know how useful it is to be useless.

>>186788
The more useful you are, the faster you die.

>>186811
Exactly. Chill out, let life take its course. Let other people waste and shorten their lifespan with work and worry. This is the Tao of the NEET.

EDF 5 is the only one I like ..

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>the-source.jpg
my ass

>>186816
nice ass

Gross, lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! DON'T LET THE DYKES GET YOU DOWN, BECAUSE IT'S TIME TO PARTY ヽ(´∇`)ノヽ(´∇`)ノ

>>186761
Men must be destroyed, until then the world will never reach it's peak

>And who's going to lift those heavy rocks?

Well tomboys, clearly

>>186752
cute gif

>>186752
Happy birthday

Some real classic memes in here. ヽ(´∇`)ノ

futaba

meow

meow

meow

bark!

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*quack*

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I will not

Yes!

sad... eye contact is best... NON VERBAL COMMUNICATION!!1!

eye contact is uncomfortable so i would!

I will not, simply because I am GAY. (;´Д`)

*poke*

LOL

>>186275
but i like male vampires too
>>186248
if you liked la pucelle and disgaea, i would play the rhapsody series. its made by a lot of the same people, so the combat system and some of the comedy and character archetypes are similar
as for my favorite jrpgs, i of course love dothack, but i love the series as a whole outside of the games. i like drakengard, evergrace, stella deus, gradnia, xenosaga, the neptunia series, the agarest war series, and i absolutley love shin megami tensei
i forgot to mention it but i play a lot of fighting games too, im not very good but i play melty blood and accent core +r alot, aswell as some random fightcade games like akatsuki blitzkampf. i also just got eternal fighter zero on cd so i want to start playing that more, i also have magical battle arena on dvd if that counts as a fighting game. i also just feel like mentioning that i really like castlevania and ive been playing through harmony of dissonance recently

this thread got more replies then i thought so ill leave my xmpp (rather than my email)
vampireprincessd@xmpp.jp

hay we are very alike! I also like SNES and RPGs and JPRGS and ps2 games i have played a few puyo gaims... I also like 70s-90s yaoi and shoujo and of course i like teh 2000s. i really wanna form a bond with you now since we haev similar interests!!vkei is nice i listen to a few bands it is my thing ! but i might have to create a new email for this since my current emails have my pseudonym im known for on many places, im very normal on those places and not this big of a weeb but i am kinda a weeb on those places(´￢`)

>>186278
my client keeps making a lot of noises, im not sure if anyone has added me and thats what the noises are for
im using a modified os so it seems that my notifcation popups arent working for some reason

>>186281
added you

La Pucelle seems really cool, Disgaea is one my favorite JRPGs ever. I'd also rec Sting as another similar JRPG developer, though "similar" is kind of a stretch since they're easily one of the most unique studios of that period, I mostly just say that because I like their character designs a lot wwwww
I haven't watched too much old anime, mostly action stuff like Oedo 808 or Gunsmith Cats, but I'm fond of BL. I can't call Yarichin my favorite because I kind of hate how whorish the boys are, but Yacchan is one of my favorite characters from any manga ever.
Vampires I generally associate with cool evil gun manga, Hellsing and the like. I'm kind of half-heartedly working a game involving an angel protagonist.
I've been playing a couple Dreamcast Shmups on emulator, Border Down and Kaorus specifically. I'm actually terrible at shmups (Th7 is my fave 2hu because it's the only one easy enough that I've 1CC'd on normal) haven't beat stage 3 of either yet but I mostly play them for the musical experience so I'm fine with that. VNs I find frustrating because I live in a noisy house and can rarely find a comfortable time to actually focus on one, still I've been reading through The Silver Case recently.
I only really know Malice Mizer as far as Vkei, I like Hikari Light Club though which I kind of consider aesthetically adjacent.
I've never used xmpp before, but I guess I might as well leave mine here too: ghost-ogre@xmpp.jp

I wish she'd place her magic starfish right on my face .. and then let loose.

my heaaaaart

the truth...

ninja heyuri stars

sour smelling boxers