Focus on improving the self, not the image

Ask yourself "assuming you have unlimited power and no one will stop you, what is the kind of person you want to be?" Make sure that you are able to tell apart "what you want" and "what other people want you to want".

The one thing I've noticed is that a lot of internet people tend to be "prescriptive" in what they call themselves. That is, if someone is considered a "fujoshit", and because fujoshits usually enjoy highly depraved yaoi fiction, that person "forces" themselves to "enjoy" yaoi to "prove" that they are a "real" fujoshit. Other examples I can think of are forcibly acting emo and gloomy if you decide to dress gothic or darker colors, and the opposite if you dress pink cotton candy madoka dresses. Horrible scenario

I have no idea what I am talking about, but it seems like you want to have an "identity"(?). Usually I try to make the words I use "describe" myself, but not allow them to "define" myself so I don't have that problem. Also the idea I have for the kind of person I want be is "the kind of person I would want to hang out with" . I don't know if this is helpful OP.

> I honestly don't have any specific new image in mind.
Picture!

>>2169
Oh no its okay, I enjoy seeing someone ramble like this with non universal but clearly real experiences LOL, I know what you're talking about, and yeah, I guess I'd like a change of aesthetic and of general air and maturity I have. I feel like a baby sometimes due to mental problems and I'd like to act more like a grown up, not as in doing taxes and getting a "real job" I just don't want to throw anymore tantrums and be cool

erm maybe start by stopping making hundreds of screwdriver holes into your flesh, that isn't a good look

i want everyone on this board to be ok and get better ( ´･ω･` )

>>2171
I'll never stop self harming!

>>2174
no! Stop harming yourself!

>>2175
Okay, Maybe I'll try to get clean for the sake of my new look or whatever, having scars instead of constant permanent fresh cuts could be good

keep cutting urself. make sure u hit a nerve too ヽ(´ー｀)ノ

>>2178
Nah i still need my left arm for many things

says who, ur therapist? i think u should get a saw and cut off ur whole arm , then send it to heyuri ヽ(´ー｀)ノ. new you!

oh and not to mention, cutting off ur whole entire arm would help with ur "people pleasing tendences" because, u cant help people if u dont have an arm ヽ(´∇`)ノ

>>2181
Dont underestimate me, I can be rude with both arms and helpful with one! Stop jacking off to amputees

.......darn it

id like to say this obsession with guro started on tumblr, but its much older than that, im talking caveman times.

if you think about it, a gender who has evolved to endure rape and being war brides and slavery, wives of mongols and arabs, and barbarians, there likely exists some gene that expresses itself as a blood fascination / sexualization / fetishization of death among women, i wont say "us women" because i dont have this gene.

before anyone says "genes cant do that" yes, they can. Theres even genes that make people more predisposed to urges to stab when angry... think about what else is cultivated through micro-evolution

>>2184
There might be less "genes" involved and more cultural evolution, where "cultures" (beliefs, ideas and values) with brutality are somehow more likely to get passed on (like parents and communities are more likely to survive barbarian hordes and train children with a similar mindset).

That being said, surely you are more than just genes and the culture around you, right?

>>2185
I'm op, this is going off topic buttt i've thought about this for a long time, I enjoy guro in special contexts (self harm + girl stalkers hurting cute boys) I don't think I was born this way but I do think I had a bigger chance of turning out like this. I never liked horror movies, they scared me, I wasn't a stereotypical creepy child, just a weirdo, but also I have memories of watching cartoons even before I had internet and shipping male characters together, and imagining how one of them would react if the other got kidnapped/died, I also have an abusive family, and whenever my mom really made me angry I'd go and hurt animals (I never killed anything but I kicked dogs and strangled a pet cat often and badly, I stopped doing it and it lived, I regret it) as a replacement and to cope with being unable to take her down and do the things to her that I did to animals instead, and ever since I can remember I enjoyed weird fantasies about two catgirls being grown in a lab and forced to sleep naked on the floor and warm each other up, I've always been a creepy child, and yes I was molested, I'd love to know what genes contributed to me being this way, since so many people were beaten and molested as well and didnt turn out like me, so that cant be the only factor, I think I just lack a bit the part of my brain that thinks some things are wrong and my tastes developed according to this, I sound edgy but I'd like to discuss this seriously, pic for attention

>I think I just lack a bit the part of my brain that thinks some things are wrong
Sounds liek autism - welcome 2 teh club!

>>2187
I know I'm autistic already, I can't believe I forgot to include it I just didn't think it would make me more likely to be a guro girl for some reason