Hello, discolad here. I don't have a lot of friends -- group has gotten smaller lately. I would like to share this with you. Ive suffered with schizophrenia for 10+ years.

With journaling, logs, medication and better sleep after losing a lot of it , I'm getting over it. I had mild and less than admirably trajectory moving back to tdot after living in Northern ON. I used to visit 420chan or google my ID for any answers; it turned out it was mostly in my head. My brain helped me none, but that is entirely the point.

The medical model in canadian hospitals for psych stuff is really organized to push out the drugs and have people take them. They aren't made to handle stuff without them. I'm not radicalized against that, but Ive been told this a number of times. It would be weird to 'Stop being crazy' and then 'Invest in Crazy idea' too, so I wont. I am saying I am having more luck trying newer things and not smoking so much, praying for a solution to fall from the sky though.

But I wanted to share this struggle with strangers on the internet; The final part of discophrenia 7 (Maybe one day?) features the pier of Kam River in Tbay; the James Whalen Tugboat has moved -- its no longer there. The pier was very quiet with the CBC playing Miles Davis at night, and then someone made that chiptune collection "Some kind of Bloop" please google that.

Tbay couldve been nicer; the apartment I rented is owned by Remax and not by private landlords. I was there for 3 years, the final 3 months were terrifying and very bad. Reflecting on that had me think if I even put the photo in the video there would be some answer -- truthfully it was all in my head.

I liked living there but it was faught with a lot of anxiety and over-shoulder checking, and a lot of gossip. I was more used to passing completely unseen on a bike past city hall in toronto -- this became an invitation to milk jugs being tossed in tbay (lol).

I know some or fewer than I think have been collecting my vids; Ive been very sick for a long time. I really appreciate anyone holding onto my work. It's a form of valor and keeps me going. I haven't quite disappeared entirely. I will be back with new stuff soon

Thank you everyone; I am sorry if I fled or gave the wrong impression.