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>>193673>>193673
I get this. At high school I had basically no friends I'd hang out with for years and I was perfectly happy. Only later after I'd gotten friends I'd hang out with and see regularly would I start feeling lonely at times without them. It's almost like I had to learn how to be lonely in the first place

Going back to not having friends is easy, but I can't promise you the happiness part. If you have autism, consider the double empathy problem - autistics get along with each other just as well as "allistics" (non-autistics) do with each other, but combinations of autistics and allistics struggle to understand or empathize with each other. Perhaps you're an autistic trying to befriend allistics, and that's why you feel un-human and unable to connect - it's worth considering at least

Personally, I want friends and people in my life - I got to experience it a little as a kid, but I haven't had anyone since I was 16. It ain't easy to make friends once you're in your thirties and spent half your life socially isolated, I can tell you that much - so I don't recommend intentionally driving everyone away if there's the possibility that you might regret it later

i feel like i cant be happy with either. when i have friends i feel a disconnect, dont know how to talk to them, i get scared of opening up to them and run away or push them away. then when im lonely i get depressed and spiral into a miserable person no one would want as a friend. eventually i realize something needs to change and start working on myself and then the whole cycle repeats

I'm one of those people who are happier in solitude (=ﾟωﾟ)ﾉ
IRL friends are hindrance to spending all day on computar and must be gotten rid of!

>>193686
Let's break the cycle

getting rid of them is the easiest part

>>193673
I've never had friends but I became fuckbuddies with a chick who I thought was really cool. She took my virginity and then kind of left me done and dusted after a few months.
Our interactions were strange. She's hyper-smart autistic, whereas I'm just a weird obsessive loser with hobby/collector fixations, with no experience with applied science or any knowledge of the real world.
I'm glad I lost my virginity because that was one of the things I was always beating myself up about, but sometimes I kind of wish I had stayed a virgin because it's ruined fapping for me in a way. (Not as in fapping doesn't feel as good as sex, but more like I can't stop thinking about our time in the bedroom when I pump off, and it makes me depressed.)

193697-san is showing off!! Let's beat him up!! ヽ(`Д´)ノ

>>193683
i am autistic and my friends are autistic too but i guess the problem is that we're different kinds of autistic and i'm super sensitive while they're super insensitive

>>193687
taco

maybe they are bad friends

>>193719
i don't believe that there's any such thing as a good friend for me because it seems like the only people willing to be my friend are manipulative people who don't care about who i am as a person and it's happened so many times that i just can't trust anybody at this point so it's better to just keep my distance from people because i have no way to tell who's being genuine and who's trying to manipulate me

however every heyurian is my friend and i trust all of you

You shouldn't worry so much and trying to compare your emotions to others... just have friends in the way you enjoy... maybe these people just don't click with you for some reason, there are plenty of other fish in the sea...

>>193769
i don't enjoy having friends

whatever dude