cheer up alone kid

>>186849
I’m not depressed. My day is going quite well, but I don’t know—you know how they say girls are soft and warm? Well, I’ve only ever heard that.

Actually, I’ve never had a real friend throughout my life—I mean, I’ve had friends, but not the kind I could really open up to.

Or rather, I’m not exactly very social, though I’m not a NEET either. Well, actually, there were times when I was a NEET, but you couldn't call me a *hikikomori*

I dont know just hug and...

hmm girl is cool and great ambition but it always comes down to "good enough reasonable person" rather than gender. this world sucks! make sure to stipulate! warm flesh and companionship isn't worth psychological abuse from people who will abandon you in an instant!

>>186852

Thanks! Of course, that’s what I try to do, but I do have a bit of a need for validation. For instance, even though I’m normally a religious person, I talked to my classmates about alcohol (AND—on top of that—they didn't even react well; the reaction was negative. But you know how it is...)

Actually, when I said "girl," I was describing an archetype more than anything. You know—love, affection, and things like that... you get the idea.

I always thought having a girlfriend would make me happy. It didn't.

thank you for elaborating. i think when you have perspective enough to pursue love and reject things which are based on compromises that impede love, you set yourself against all real and living evil. don't take many short term and long term relationships suspiciously ending and fights starting because of this stance. i think many normies get triggered by someone who pursues love/God because they see paradigm breaking compassion and corresponding presence as a strange and arrogant manifestation of pride! i will do my best to help you find true love

>>186858
Thanks, but you misunderstood; the issue is actually something else.

I mean, I’m the one who’s been the "sinner" from the very start. Yes, it sounds a bit ridiculous, but I used to say I drank just to get a reaction or validation—even if it was negative. I’d show people photos from my gallery and even invite them out for a drink (nobody ever came; in fact, I’m sure they thought I was a scumbag).

It’s actually something internal; whenever I experience a moment like that, I immediately rush to seek validation through "bad things." But I’ve realized it doesn't help at all—it just makes everything worse (because everyone thinks I’m a scumbag).

And yes, I think from now on, when I face something like that, I won't want to seek validation through bad things.

Note: My alcohol consumption is actually quite low; I used to use drugs, but I haven't touched them for about 10 months now.

Note 2: It’s not just alcohol—this applies to everything: tobacco, e-cigarettes, porn, you name it.

>>186857

This is a bit more of a personal matter. There are bound to be those who are happy, too.

i misunderstand? ok i understand this idea. now i pray for you to find love and power to not need nice poison water drink for feel happy, this please you? if you tell me more problem you are not afraid to be seen i ask God to help you

Yeah, well, ur not the only one (;´Д`)

>>186865
I apologize; I didn't mean it that way.

No, I’m not happy about being a "sinner" anyway; I just thought you hadn't fully grasped that issue.

>>186866
I hope everything turns out for the best.

>>186867
Also, I don't actually know much English and am using a translation tool; please forgive me if there are any mistakes.

turn your hope into prayers. pray to God to see this desire borne of love made real. look for His response. look to see if what you requested truly is in the image of love.