I just got drunk and fapped. The l-arginine I have been taking seems somewhat overrated. I want to be as objective as I can and the results I observe on my body are insufficient to rule it as the cause of changes without a doubt; they might be a placebo or only slightly improved. Note that if you are indeed a fapper - any performance counts! Okay. I feel like my dick does not go flat as quickly as usual and it rises faster after an orgasm, the strength the dick ejects sperm with seems to be slightly increased. Though as I say - I can't be fully confident.

The pills I took also contained B vitamins like 6 9 and 12, and an additional set had magnesium. I think (assuming it is not a placebo) that I feel more inclined to work. Specifically I got to actually learn linux properly and do adjustments that I wished to do but I never had patience to actually implement. Once again, I am not sure of how placebo-like the feeling is, or actual vitamin defficiency was fixed. Either way I did stuff I wanted to do. Moreover I feel an urge to fuck up some Minecraft server with full dominance and set up hosting for evading server restrictions; like safe doxxing on the main page, trading with money/crypto in the open, talking shit on admins, attempting to find exploits and hacking the server itself for free market money, a video and file hosting and a forum for everything above implemented straight into it. Jurisdiction would not matter if I hosted it throgh tor and I have some experience with tor hosting on my home machine. It would be so funny watching them getting lawsuits rejected for inability to determine even suspects. I also figured a way to do in-game items to forum credits banking which I already have coded into the forum script I use. ZOMG it would be so fun to dominate them. I also figured a way to set up my RAM memory like a hard drive in linux so that I can load my cheats all I want - I would plug in my pendrive with all cheats and load the game into the RAM, the entire game with cheats and then disconnect the pendrive so that they would not be able to prove shit with helpdesk or whatever they use nowadays and evade bans forever, at least polish servers have a general policy of actually checking your system for cheats instead of banning on mere suspicion, it used to be screen sharing but nowadays they mostly seem to do remote desktop.

Also I drank cheap alcohol. Vodka. I take one sip of cola, store it in my mouth, get a sip or two of vodka and swallow it fast, instantly after I swallow the load - I get an additional sip of cola to purge the taste of vodka. I barely feel anything at this point and my mind is in another galaxy as I am typing. Every sound, visual and even keyboard touch feels very personal and intimate and I am full of joy. I am aware of it, and for the sole reason of spreading psychological knowledge of alcohol intake influcence of mind - I will not look at the beginning of my post to check what I wanted to share - I will go on. I actually don't remember what I wanted to share in particular as I have been writing this essay for at least 15 minutes.

Everything feels joyous, the feeling that I do not know in my sober state. I can't smile, I can't hate. I am nothing and no soul. I only wish for common benefit of all sentient beings to mature into buddhahood. Alcohol is a genuine way to get close to that state, and I would guess that psychedelics would be fine if not better too!! Friends invited me for drinking at a pond on 31st of 09 of 2025. I own a spare 100ah battery. I closed my eyes for a bit to think about the word for battery, polish "akumulator" and I felt being embraced by the universe.

Also I want to note that if you feel like alcohol you take gets you nowhere and it acts slowly - rethink it with caution. If you want to get drunk in a way that your consciousness is very altered - let it brew in you for 10 minutes or so after taking it. I drank like 100ml of vodka slowly and got disappinted. So I quickly got another 250ml in the way I described above very fast to accelerate the effects. Contrary to what I expected despite being a vodka lover - I did not expect this much effect. I actually almost killed myself a few months back after taking like 200ml of 95% pure ethanol in one hit after kids on omegle claimed they are drinking wine and I shall drink with them. I warn you it is risky as fuck and I would not do it again. The taste will fade away quite fast, but your body will have to take it anyway, and digestion takes a long time unlike tasting. I only know from being replayed my recording of that evening that I was talking shit on my tech university for some 40 minutes (I was unconscious at that point and I don't remember it at all) then I fell to the floor, broke my shaded glasses and evaded eye damage for some divine reason, puked myself, pissed myself, mother lifted me to the bed, I pissed the bed, and the next thing I remember is waking up in my bed with knowledge that I got drunk bad, but with no memory of anything and with warm moist bed. I also pissed my bed. Heyurizens please don't drink yourself do death.

Besides, I can go around all I want unsupervised in a local castle of some 700 years. I will make a thread soon introducing heyuri to this nice place. I am in a state so bad right now that it is pointless for me to tamper with files. It has been around an hour I have been typing these things out. I think sharing my unfiltered, bare, savage thoughts is beneficial to the world for the sake of learning of thinking processess of people and genuine experience. I want to look perfect too, but the overriding value is truth, and this is truth. If you do some things as me - do not fear to do them as probably you are not alone. If you do not do things as me - you can learn from an unfiltered text of my behaviour. It is hard to study human behaviour without actual stories with no filters, I like studying human behaviour - but everyone seems to filter stuff. I do not wish to filter for common benefit of learning. I do not care about my reputation nowhere near as much as truth.

Bless heyuri, the only site where I am unfiltered. I like alcohol a lot. ZOMG!!!!!!