im an alcoholic, can we still be friends? (;´Д`)

>>176101
Yes >:3

Usually I always trip alone. LSD? Cakewalk. 5 dried grams? Sure. 5-MeO-DMT? I can manage. But there's one drug I have that I haven't fully dove into and would be afraid to do so by myself, and that's DPT.

Unfortunately I'm a disgusting old man. Although I do hate the government.

>>176103
What is the deepest you been to?

>>176100
Im looking for a toilet aswell

here's what I have to offer:

1. Infinite Income: None of which will be used on you because I need to buy more vidya. If you want a piece of it, you need to allow yourself to get fuckborted like pic rel

2. Age: Physically 400, due to being trapped in stasis. Mentally? Only 9.

3. Attractiveness: Doctors and Surgeons have described my body as "perfect". I molested a girl in 2019 and absolutely nothing happened - likely because she found me too attractive to prosecute

With that out of the way, here's who I am looking for

For females:

1. Diligent fujoshi & shotacon

1.2. Has the taste of a Gaiafag little boy

1.3. wont get upset at me for drawing deviantart porn

1.4. Can click the correct buttons on my girlfriend application
https://mysticcombat.com/gfapps.html

That's it. I'm not asking for that much.

>>176100
>Unpredictible income. Sometimes lots of money, sometimes none at all, depends on what is my business at a given time.
drug dealer

i hope you are successful in finding a brain b0rk girlfriend some day rabbitfield-san

>>176105
With DPT, 50 mg snorted. Saw a CEV of a wall made out of clown vomit with undulating pipes running vertically up it and going into it. Had the vague impression that this scenery was alive and sentient but there was no communication. Wasn't super uncomfortable but didn't feel euphoric. Only felt pity for the wall and undulating pipe.

Had several trips at 30 mg by the same ROA, always with good results. Powerfully euphoric, warm, loving and erotic. Felt more like LSD than a high-power tryp.

I don't think I actually would go all the way with DPT even if I have a trusted sitter. Not because DPT is reputed to be weird and scary, but because I've tripped so much that I think I've peeked behind the curtain enough for one lifetime. For me, LSD is pretty mellow, at least at the doses I've taken it (350 ug or lower), and is more psychological than spiritual. I can do that still. Among the Shipibo-Conipo it may be normal to ingest ayahuasca regularly beginning from adolescence, but without the cultural foundation they've built around it, and also the fact that I'm a hikikomori, I think going further with those sorts of trips would be gambling with my sanity.

What about you?

>>176121
Have you experienced clinical insanity?
Not a bad trip, but actual psychiatric insanity

Ooohhh u meant trip like acid, that makes more sense

>>176128
"Clinical insanity" is a bit of an oxymoron as clinicians no longer use the term insane. I did have a nightmare trip on AL-LAD that I'm surprised I came back from though. Now I've had other bad trips, but on this one rather than the usual psychedelic ego-dissolution, I felt my ego fracture into pieces. More like a dissociative effect. It was like I had a dozen different inner monologues speaking in unison, a dozen different selves. That's not something you'd expect from that drug, even in a bad trip.

Thankfully no symptoms have ever persisted beyond the duration of a drug's action. There have been changes in mood and personality, but not hearing voices or seeing things.

rabbitfield i am not polish but i can be a bro you can hang with (ﾟー｀)

>>176146
Brain bork is so insane, my conscious during psychosis had to constantly fight many of primal beings inside me that were me and just as many foreign beings inside me, and schizophrenic external beings from making me grab a knife from my desk and an heroing

The whole thing lasted about 26 hours, psychosis lasted for about 20 hours during which I could not let my guard down from something overtaking and ending me with that knife, it was so tiring XD

There were moments when I would disconnect mentally and physically like a restart switch losing memory and waking up into that hell again, so many times when my conscious thought it is a good idea considering how much suffering it would spare, so I cuffed my hand and I kept the other cuff around my radiator just not yet locking it in because I was aware sufficiently that if I reboot or my conscious disconnects my subconscious could be scared by being cuffed

Preceeding mental condition of being locked inside my head could trigger amplified reaction by being really jailed with cuffs (subconscious operates on symbols, lockup-jail-cuffs are connected), I am sure my subconscious would react to it with a panic attack and that would throw me into a deeper madness and I was done with teasing limits as it was an immesurable suffering already, so I held that cuff with hands for many hours waiting for the right moment to lock in
The moment never came luckily, teh image illustrates that mental state very well

When your ego is truly empty then screams and moans will fill the night to compensate it
I think I will never stop talking and thinking about it because it was so intense, magical, scary, and painful
I am really glad I was perapred with letting go and accepting the fate without struggling, at around 16 hours in or 10 hours into psychosis I accepted I will never live normally and it kept my subconscious and instincts in check which would interpret tiny signs of sobering up as a positive things and not worry about destroying my whole life and body forever to which it got accustomed to by me explaining it to it, my subconscious is very submissive and orderly, it worked like a charm
I was hallucinating so bad that after I deduced water loss I lost 20000kcal that day despite eating like half a kilo of sugar

I suspect synapses lost the substance for electrical exchange just past peak making mechanisms bork one by one and failing to resynchronize for way too long, I quickly felt like I had no serotonin at all since if you burn through all your ability to pass signals then effectively you have no serotonin, I had something of sort before and it felt like MDMA depression and emptiness on steroids setting in minutes. I had enough of mental capability so I mentally prepared for shit to go down as I had no antidote at hand (dumb me). I got my cuffs and lots of sugar and began eating sugar like crazy to avoid burning through muscles and burning/borking neurons as acid was not fading away and it takes an insane amount of energy to trip so I figured I may be fucked, and also cuffs in case I can't contain insanity, I closed windows and limited amount of light and sound, my state was worsening rapidly so I went about it fast, complete psychosis arrived in about an hour since I started borking

Its a long story!!

>>176100
>Unpredictible income.
Is that a polite way of saying you moan for drugs and money in another way?

>>176236
I make my extra money myself

>>176237
I make my extra money prostituting myself*

>>176252
No!

>>176253
Is there a discount for ojisans?

>>176254
No