I decided not to do molly because I do not like withdrawals, it seemed a bit to scary. Also some guys say they burned their serotonin after regular use so bad they just wanted to die for weeks and months and nothing was pleasurable. I know it reportedly goes well with acid and how it works in general. But I fear it too much. I will not take joy for the next hours and pay that debt with extreme depression, fatigue and aches later.

My opinion probably is worthless since I never tried it. Stimulants kowai. I tend to rationalize beliefs rather than challenge them. I am only interested in nirvana and the boundary of psychosis as of now anyway!

I could hear my cat walking downstairs and tell exactly where it is and where it is going through a well isolated headset with very loud music without any difficulty. Surreal sharpness. And sight in general becomes very sharp too. I could easily see spaces between pixels on my 1440p screen from abour 40cm away. And night vision of sort is possible because you become so sensitive.

I also had my fumos for a company but their eyes were lingering so bad in the light from my screen. My subconscious was telling me they will jump and bite through my neck artery any time, so I threw them behind me and never looked at them anymore to forget about them
I also feared the front of my Lay's pack for some reason, so I rotated it to its back and it stopped being as scary.

I promise that anyone taking a lot of psychedelics must hide all images of teeth, angry/threatening faces and skeleton/bones/skulls/organs/blood images (so no gore or anything reminding of mortality) at all cost no exceptions. Also hide and do not look at stuff that could scare a 5 year old kid like ghosts, demons, youkai, graves, etc. Do not at animal pictures, especially at predators like wolves or bears but also do not look at bugs, insects, reptiles and rodents in particular, but all animals in general. They will trigger fear to some extent. Also avoid illnesses and viruses depictions. Avoid ugly images, images with red eyes, do not look at your chandelier (REALLY), do not open and look into your closets and drawers and keep them all shut. At all cost do not listen to creepypastas, scary stories and such unless you want a an express ride to a psychosis. Be careful with looking at blankets and carpets, be careful looking at dirty things like your desk stained with instant ramen drops or if your screen is full of marks from sneezing. Select carefully what music you listen to and keep working joyous songs always at hand if hell starts taking over and drift away from it as soon as anything starts feeling off, do not seek source of why it is getting scary and change the train of thoughts as fast as possible. There is no going back if you react too slow. Remember than whenever you piss - you are not dying pissing pure blood! It felt quite scary

>>162445
It was real. After I peak I must turn my music from 90% to 55% because I become so sensitive. On psychedelics you become "centerless" and every input is taken on its own as is. Nothing is filtered out, nothing is irrelevant for your brain. You see and hear everything, but the more you eat of it the less sense reality makes. So it is a tradeoff, mental incapacitation for sharp senses.

You technically can hear stuff like this too at all times in your regular state, but default networks of your brain filter it out before it even gets to conscious analysis centers. So you get lied to that there is no sound. Acid disables temporarily the default network and bypasses all its filters since signals do not use highways anymore where filters dwell, but go directly to the nearest regions. That is the reason you can taste music or touch colors too.

So you suddenly hear and see and notice everything. Some are hallucinations but hallucinations arise mostly from real sensory input being misinterpreted and subconscious who lacks necessary information to make sense of it so it just paints whatever feels right like AI generator. That is what I believe happens. Hallucinations stack like AI steps on image generation a few times every second, like 3 to 15 layers I would say but I never measured time and estimated. If you do not reset the illusion it will just stack and become something of its own after you let it morph enough.

Resetting illusion means refocusing. Like blinking, looking somewhere else, changing sound input like turning off/changing music or making a sound like coughing so the streak of the illusion breaks. And most of all thinking about something else while doing everything above at the same time. Illusion can often be broken if you escape the train of thought by refocusing. Ideally completely forgetting you ever saw that illusion so that you do not fall back into it each time. It is hard to explain.

I would say there are two types of illusion. Initial "sensory illusion" and later "mental illusion". I believe there is pretty much always a real sensory input misinterpreted by limited mental resources that I call "sensory illusion", that is the first one or first few stacks of the illusion. If your mind gets locked onto observing it (like not refocusing and being mindless) - then it soon becomes a "mental illusion" because it only modifies the previous illusions into deeper illusions until the initial true reality and early "sensory illusions" become such a tiny fraction of this sum of layers that it becomes essentially purely imaginary. And you can clean your imagination, not eyes nor ears. That is why on a "reset" you would get the real image and soon warped images of reality and then completely insane images.

>>162446
No! I mean it happens when you eat retarded amounts of acid! On low doses like it should be fine. But I never tried low doses so I can't vouch for anything.
I only know retarded amounts like 450-500ug on full tolerance reset. I wonder how 650 looks

>>162461
I know. My subonscious/innate instincts react to these images. Not me. I need to take it into account before I pass full control to them. I do not choose what spooks them. Especially that some fears are innate (like suffocation, darkness, hostile/creepy faces (some call it uncanny valley faces when they are almost but not truly human), human screams and especially screams of toddlers etc.).
There was a fine lecture on youtube about fears!

I am barely if at all present in my body in that state depending on if I black out. Consciously I do not fear death, but in that state it is different. I can only perform most basic actions but only personlessly. Only for objective goals and not from my volition. I cannot alter much what I call "psychedelic thoughts" and they determine mood, emotions, feelings, hallucinations including vision sound touch temperature smell time sense etc. At most I can reset psychedelic thoughts and amnesia helps it a lot.

What remains of me at that time is a soulless tool that takes input from senses (who are all confused, desynced, and fight with each other anyway), but is unable to comment on anything, and who is fine with it (fine is an overstatement, I cannot prefer and I am unable to complain or enjoy). No will, no identity, no attachment, no preference, no love and no hate, complete inability for anything of this sort. Meat sack full of sensory aparature with no human inside. Note that I enjoy ungodly amounts like 500ug. No idea how amounts lower than 450 work.

I agree that existence is an illusion, but I do not mind. By definition it is impossible to comprehend the true reality, only able to refine more and more accurate imaginary mental model of it but it will always remain a belief and an illusion, greater or lesser but a lie. No way to trust anything, I personally do not care and go with it. That is my lie of choice.