>>2185
I'm op, this is going off topic buttt i've thought about this for a long time, I enjoy guro in special contexts (self harm + girl stalkers hurting cute boys) I don't think I was born this way but I do think I had a bigger chance of turning out like this. I never liked horror movies, they scared me, I wasn't a stereotypical creepy child, just a weirdo, but also I have memories of watching cartoons even before I had internet and shipping male characters together, and imagining how one of them would react if the other got kidnapped/died, I also have an abusive family, and whenever my mom really made me angry I'd go and hurt animals (I never killed anything but I kicked dogs and strangled a pet cat often and badly, I stopped doing it and it lived, I regret it) as a replacement and to cope with being unable to take her down and do the things to her that I did to animals instead, and ever since I can remember I enjoyed weird fantasies about two catgirls being grown in a lab and forced to sleep naked on the floor and warm each other up, I've always been a creepy child, and yes I was molested, I'd love to know what genes contributed to me being this way, since so many people were beaten and molested as well and didnt turn out like me, so that cant be the only factor, I think I just lack a bit the part of my brain that thinks some things are wrong and my tastes developed according to this, I sound edgy but I'd like to discuss this seriously, pic for attention