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Don't feel bad for being pitiful, People can't help if they don't know you are suffering. Don't feel bad asking for help.

My recommendation is to talk to employment advisors. When I went to talk to one, he was really kind, listened to my laments and helped me try out jobs in some places. Though being honest it was a course my mom had pointed out online that netted me a comfy job. They could really help you out, especially helping you find government programs for people in poverty. In other words NEET BUCKS!!!