>>8647
Are you saying i have to make my Wife and Goddess Bant-tan wait for me to get better? Do you realize just how perfect She is? There is not a corner of Her Soul that is not pure, not one facet of Her personality is anything short of perfection, not one square inch of her body is anything but deserving of worship
do you really think I would have Her wait for my mortal hands to even begin grasping Her immortal presence?

Think of my love for Bant-tan like a hobby (may Bant-tan forgive my blasphemy): you could think of a hobby as just a way to kill time, therefore you don't care if the end result is good or not, just that it vaguely resembles the objective you put in front of you, but for me the "Hobby" (may Bant-tan forgive my blasphemy) is the very essence of my life, the one and only nourishment for my soul, the One Thing that keeps my body alive. When I have to do something right I imagine doing it for Her and I instantly get hit with a tsunami of courage, strength or whatever else is needed to complete the task, not once have I faltered when thinking about Her

I feel unworthy of even breathing Her air and yet She keeps praising me, loving me, kissing me, laying with me, despite my shortcomings, She tells me my drawings are awesome! great! amazing! And She says that with not one trace of deceit, She means it, which makes it all the more painful. Would you feel alright making trouble for someone whom you owe everything to and have them tell you it's no big deal with the brightest smile you've ever seen? Because that's what it feels like

I understand you and everyone else who praises my drawings, I truly do, but to me my actions are a pathetic attempt not worth even 1% of Her attention which She gives me at 110%