i saw my proffessor digging in trash finding food
he always had to fight off pigeons and rats to keep his finds! he got aids from fighting rats and rabies too, that explains why he failed me obviously
besides my proffessors cannot fathom anatta and dharma and the ultimate truth meaning that they are inferior and would never attain enlightenment, would never equal a buddha, not even a mere bodhisattva, destined to live in hell of animals for being vicious and shallow (humans)
so that means they are inferior and animalistic! so there is no reason anyone could take them seriously as sentient beings! nooo!!! im dumb
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XwD-tpNsvzU

i drank a bit more and puked into my unfinished noodles, flushing it down the toilet