I got to be born at a time when lots of labour was done by people a generation older than me when I was not even able to walk and talk, and I got to inherit this world free of charge thanks to them.

To truly appreciate the position of being young is to appreciate people who built us this world. People are dying of old age after a life of labour and making this hope of theirs, of a better world real. I did not get to thank my ancestors hundreds of years ago who worked entire lives in factories and fields for 15 hours a day with inhumane conditions for a bare minimum to not starve. Did not get to thank my fallen family members in WW2 who managed to preserve our lineage. My older neighbours who opposed communism at a risk of being arrested and dying of "unknown" causes in the jail. I reap the benefits of all that was before me. Older people deserve respect if they lived an honest life, even an insignificant, poor, uneducated, and short; it is worthy of a shrine. Karmically interdependent and continuous fabric of the world in its full magnificence, people who improve the life for next generations deserve names carved in marble. I am thankful I get to sit at my desk all day, drink coke, get onaholes halfway across the earth, and listen to a 1000th arenji of my favourite songs. I can't act this bad among elders, too much shame.

I actually want to get a 100 signatures one day and make up a religion legally and get a bit of land and with this head of a religion status to set up a defacto private burial site where I would bury my dad one day and my own family but also offer honorable elders free burials and I would keep graves in good dignity. Even more specifically I want a private burial site to store bodies as I see fit. I think displaying bones behind glass with a list of achievements in life and estimated quantification of their contribution is more honorable than dumping their bodies 2 meters underground like trash and getting them eaten by bugs.

If reincarnation is because of matter recycling in nature and getting swallowed by living entities then I want to submerge my dads body in mercury to stop this recycling process and put it in stasis until I figure a way to send his body into space or core of earth to hopefully spare him from samsara forever as there is no living things in space but also nobody would recover a body from a big volcano once I throw it in there, rebirth is impossible and samsara is effectively fled from, no more suffering. The point is that I cannot be this nasty to elders who are good people face to face and shameless. Partying like an animal among ojisans is too shameful.