I do sometimes. Mostly for attention on some cam roulette with strangers where I drink too much and do whatever. I have people who buy me alcohol for a permission to watch and suggest stuff while I do it. I don't think of it as humiliating but as a weird source of entertainment. Some conversations are meaningful and genuine, which is good and productive. And some turn out to be a clown festival where all sides do whatever is funny. Alcohol is what helps me talk to strangers as anonymity is not sufficient for me to feel comfortable. Limited computing power of this carbon cognitive machine does the trick.

Friends from highschool invited me to a drinking party this friday. On wednesday I go drinking with dad around a bonfire. So my schedule is filled for this week. Guys told me to bring a dress for friday and one called it a gay party and I am not sure if he meant it. I will drink either way. I will come armed with a loaded gun and a freshly sharpened and oiled spring knife in case of attempted rape. I will also bring a projector for fun and lots of alcohol which I always fund and never expect anything back. I guess they might crossdress... One has a Miku cosplay, and I have few costumes too. I will bring chen and yuru yuri dresses if someone forgets theirs. I hope it was joke about it being gay. One time in their apartment during a smaller party we were so loud that a neighbor knocked on the door and we waited it out after confirming it was a dude because one of us was in a dress because he lost the challenge... Probably got fed up with us falling to the floor loudly and knocked to tell us to shut up or else he calls cops.

I have been vegetating recent weeks mindlessly without an inspiration and I broke promise to post the disk destruction... I hope I would finish it by the end of this week... And I have not delivered promised zundamon rape either... I did not like how it ended up, precisely because of very mediocre quality and I wiped it... I hope I would try to redo it...