>>151890
Oh believe me, I'm aware. I just don't know how to progress.
Like, so many people say so many different things about improving.
"you need a teacher!"
"you need to focus on ear training"
"you need to learn how to sightread"
"if you didn't start taking piano lessons at an early age, it's over"
And if you don't pick the right choices in the correct order, or focus on the "wrong things" you'll end up fucking over your progress and you'll never be able to properly play the piano.
It's so much I just don't know how to structure myself. I remember when I had a teacher, she'd ask me "what do you want to accomplish" and "what type of music do you want to play". Naturally, if I had responded with "I want to play high level stuff that I like to listen to" I would've sounded completely naive and retarded, so I just said "classical music" because I figured that's what all the pros start out with. Everything that sounds good is just really fast paced harmonic information with excellent rhythm (aka classical music but with some jazzy spice to it). Naturally, we never got through a single song because I couldn't sightread.