I honestly relate to this struggle, at times it's gotten so bad that I not only had no motivation to watch anime, but also got really anxious at the thought of anything related to it, though I feel like I'm coming out of that stronger than before. I think what's been helping me is not worrying too much about what others would want me to do or if I'm enjoying things in the "right" way, and trying to remember exactly what I like about anime and enjoying it for that, and also not feeling like everything I have to do for fun has to relate to anime, accepting things that I like that aren't related to it, and remembering why I enjoy them too. Also I don't want you to feel like you have to force yourself to do exactly what people who are trying to "help" you suggest that you do, because that happened to me, honestly I'm no longer part of most of the friend groups that did that kind of thing to me and I feel like it's helped me reflect a good amount on how I see this stuff, I hope we can come out of it together