Have told a few people lost a couple friends because of the fact that i told them.

Would never tell my family and still too this day i try to stay private about it despite the fact that i do leave hints but most have not caught on.

I have the Lolita novel on my bookshelf and a few others like the Blue Lagoon and the movie Lamb from 2015 on DVD and a Sagiri Izumi Eromanga Sensei figure.

One of the reasons i became a hikki NEET is because of my attraction and i hide away in shame because my family hates pedos and society's discrimination and hate gets to me at times.