i'm pretty low libido which is probably suprising on heyuri but i also think it's because of being schizoid or something. it makes me feel closer to holiness btw i'm early 20s and i still dream of my 8th grade crush and if i see her irl NOW i would probably collapse on the floor
tbh i think every time i had a girl in mind i would only think about that and loose all my projects and interests. it's like a double edged sword where suffering loneliness makes me want to do more useful shit and advance in life where girl are just this big distraction where you eventually find yourself at point zero again with years in life lost. if i had a gf early in life i doubt i would have got into old interwebz and unix and read stuff like nietzsche and jung or some important media which helped me immensely