I use this board temporary and am more of refugee person, than constant board user. Sorry but I am not really laintard either, I prefer simple stories instead. I will use this thread to post only my personal happenings, just as if it was a diary by marine biologist stuck in deep ocean with no food, putting data daily about the catastrophe he's in, enjoy posting on it though I will freely answer questions.

Well, introduction is most needed, I guess. It would be kind of difficult to greet strangers and explain what my incumbency is, so I'd rather refuse and simply introduce myself as W00t. I do not want to use trips because that'd just be extra work, plus I think I have faith no one would put such energy to defile me. It is best thing that I am making this thread on Jan 7th also known as Christmas, in orthodox circles. Due to my slavic origin, I am associating myself with orthodox culture out of necessity. But, I personally prefer Catholic dominations and western spheres of schisms, that is due to the fact it's most popular denomination in Poland. I have polish noble ancestory. Though, aristocracy does not exactly confirm to my real situation. I have lost connection with these people quite long ago, and I wouldn't dream of possiblity of returning. They are rich, though, so I've heard. No matter, I am basically internet basement dweller. I am not really gonna exceed expectations in many things outside shamefulness to any noble blood, so far. I've been quite terrible hedonist my life, and I am mostly upset. Nevertherless, I will use this thread to discuss my current things, to vent out stuff but not forever, only while I currently have to do so, or at least hopefully as I feel free to speak here, as I am quite coalstone tired of all places without free speech. Currently, I am working on returning chudpol domain and trying to survive ''the Russia''
Note that I am not here to argue or answer brewing soykaf, so please, don't be rude my comrades.
>current happening
My PC is fucked. To be more precise, it is fans that make unbelievable noise, I am scared whetehr it might actually drop dead though. IT seems fans are overworking themselves, meanwhile gpu sits sleeping all day. I was gonna take it to repairshop back on the 1st of January, unfortunately have failed. ... It stopped. Thanks God. Anyway, it will return if I use even 0.0001% of cpu. I've tried quite a few tricks but none of them have seriouse effect, so I am not sure what is wrong with it. To be precise, it's not cpu fan itself but the secondary fans, at least my best guess it's them but I don't have any workstation and barely any space in my room, so it's not like I can do full disassembly conviniently. Merry Christmas! Oh yeah Jesus is born, right? I've been recently studying marine microcosmos, one of the things I always wanted was to get microscope and have my own samples, but that'd be difficult. I really fucking love worms. Tube worms, anchor worms... I love looking into all kind of parasitic worms, especially, it is my preferances. Before that, I looked into fossil research, but after a lot of time I became more amused in studies of multicellular evolution and protists, as well as animals like Hydrozoans and extermophiles in the kingdom of Archaea. I was chatting with ChatGPT and other Ai, asking it personally questions about how to exterminate all organic life? It seriously bothered that it'd be practically fcking impossible. I was thinking of like it'd be cool for there to be like AI, and the AI could destroy all life. and then how would it go about it? AI can definitely use more energy than organic life which is simply an advantage. Then I was thinking about a drama story of how the AI would kill all microcosmos and then try to imitate humans after they all died. I wonder how the AI would live without humans though, would they develop their own language? I was thinking about my feelings towards MY people, as I was looking into AI. I basically have lots of grudges on others, especially in real world, but I am hedonist myself. "Why help other humans if you lose?" I was thinking about God and humilation just in the morning. It's been on my mind for centuries. I understand how outmost difficult it is truly to be the only ONE left in the universe. How important warmth is and how humans are insecure no matter the age, and most of us still require each other no matter how selfish the people in general are. However, it kind of made me feel saddened. Knowing that in romance I'd be useless. I am not very useful person. I have never really gifted anybody anything, in fact I feel I had quite traumatic experience that made me so indifferent. But I also feel hedonistic tendencies in me, perhaps lousy hedonistic tendencies that pick easy ways out. I was recently chatting with AI, and I was thinking about how autistic I am 'cause I don't get attracted to irl women. Whether from fear, or cope, or some other reason, but I am definitelly Gamma male, I don't feel like working hard for them and have always been confused about other men. Working hard to get women always felt like playing as livestock, which I wouldn't ever commit. Being treated like resource depicates my feelings for romance, but even if I can pretend I am pretty gay tbh. I had many fantasies thinking about women treating well which aroused me, I acknowledge hedonism of it. I acknowledge also that I am really lazy and when I am I get frustrated mentally, end up spitting nonsense, it's kind of depressing how out of touch I am with my own mind, one thing I hate about it it's not sexual pleasure, it's just in general that I have OCD for things, why can't I stop feeling good? Being happy is a true crime. I wish I could do things that suck and are very very boring without having constantly second thoughts. I also wish I didn't have need to prove myself. I feel like I am missing something in the world with knowledge I possess, as if the world doesn't matter anymore just like when you do heroine, maybe 2D women are like heroine. I am definitely not lolicon kind of guy, but I understand from my point lolicon is actually a healthy version of that. I feel as if I want the most normie shit like a girl who makes you a sweater or pompers you by cleaning your ears and hugging you with her huge breasts... huge melons, motherly pillows of love.... that would... ugh... Shit like that always confuses my mind again and again, big boobs. I can't stop thinking. but I am scared of getting banned so I'll retract. I wish one day bioroids became real, and here is the kicker: it's like i want bioroids to exist to experience love but also it's because I am socially inept to experience healthy relationship like millions of human ancestors have done before I was born. With modern knowledge, it is very difficult to trust women. Bioroids would definitely be neat robotics, and with general popularity of waifuism it might not be far off. But I am afraid NEETs are just gonna die pathetically and vanish, without the trace on human history just like many have. NEETvolution is mostly a pipe dream. I've been playing Azur Lane just recently started, compared to gacha games I've played before it's pretty good. Good is kind of gay to say, cause its gacha. But games are games nevertheless. I know I said I prefer difficult games, and I enjoy playing like games like shmups or whatnot. But Azur Lane is very chill peaceful game, I was thinking of writing doujinshi for it, because i want big boobs... Anyw--way, damn... I wanted to get Charybdis but I keep getting shit ships. Also, why is there no character team presets for it? No, seriously. Shouldn't you be able to save team? I got Shimakaze, Prince Eugen... Also Bismarck from New Year's event. But that's it. I never imagined I would play it, though. I am trying not be an addict about it, but Charydbis type waifus get me... affect my concentration. /endCOM.
>I originally planned on posting on lainchan but it was relatively fucking difficult to do so, that is why it sounds so autistic.