De happenin'

so, I went outside i live in this shithole coutnry called rosiya
how? well basically my polish family was retarde
or soemthing its long story but looking at shit like holocaust it might have not been fully a bad thing. either way they would have been purged or whatever but somehow iwas created like a sad error.
a very sad error. what am I? i have no identity like any american mutt. eating banana from derpesision though,. fuck i want to sleep now. but I need to train tho
fu anyway so I am walkin' and walkin' losting fat took with me like 30-70(probably)g protein water, its fucking freezing, i was thinking with intrusive thoughts
"hm... i wonder if bacteria from the snowflakes in my tongue will eat all the protein instead of me?"
"I hate women. i hate women like i really really feel very bad. there's a lot of sexual frustration. I dont like thinghs like that. AM i going to rather be impotent? I just dont feel good. Dont feel good... I am autistic fucking NEET and really am not some kind of resource that can be milked. Maybe, I will never be with women, but you know what? I always wanted to be a hospitalier knight or something like templar knight, you know why? Back then God said "marry" like cause it was the Lord's mission. now women aren't exactly christian. and it is becoming so more difficult to talk in meaningful way. I think there might be no way to talk meaningfully in all of human history or maybe I am melancholic. Yes. I ihate that about me. But here's the thing I am getting sleepy and tired, anyway if I was stuck on island with women I wouldn't fuck any of them and they just wouldd ie