I pretty much don't see a future, it's been pretty depressing but I've tried to keep up the "laugh at the clown world" attitude I've had ever since covid.

No jobs, no art, no human connections. No reality, nothing. Here, have some toxic IV-drip machine-generated algorithm dopamine. That'll keep you happy right?

But I'm too tired to rebel. I won't accept the dopamine machines anymore than I've already been forced to. I've been getting into hard drugs recently and drinking, smoking more than I used to. I'm still employed, and I was an otherwise happy, healthy 20 something. But I can see the end in sight. I want to live however much time I have left in hedonism - old fashioned hedonism, I guess.