why does it feel like this was made by a self-loathing autist pretending to be a turbonormie? you can avoid clubs, pop music, "mainstream ideas and culture", doing drugs to fit in and having a social media presence like the plague and a most people wouldn't say you're a disappointment. some would even praise you for it. also having obscure interests nobody can relate to doesn't make you a disappointment. that's how most people start their professions, that's how professions were started to begin with.