>>191383
now you have two choices
keep being a recluse and keep blaming the lockdowns for your current state of life
"I'm retarded because of this thing that was entirely out of my and everyone else's power and there's nothing I can do about it"
might as well be "I decided to call myself retarded and that's my excuse to not do anything about the situation"
then keep seeing your regrets piling up as the time passes
or go do anything productive with your time, develop meaningful skills and hobbies, keep your mind busy everyday
at worse you'll be friendless but with always something to strive for so you won't even think about it much
at normal people will take notice that you're not just a self-wallowing pile of misery and will feel drawn to you
you wouldn't bring them down as well at that point