>>186858
Thanks, but you misunderstood; the issue is actually something else.

I mean, I’m the one who’s been the "sinner" from the very start. Yes, it sounds a bit ridiculous, but I used to say I drank just to get a reaction or validation—even if it was negative. I’d show people photos from my gallery and even invite them out for a drink (nobody ever came; in fact, I’m sure they thought I was a scumbag).

It’s actually something internal; whenever I experience a moment like that, I immediately rush to seek validation through "bad things." But I’ve realized it doesn't help at all—it just makes everything worse (because everyone thinks I’m a scumbag).

And yes, I think from now on, when I face something like that, I won't want to seek validation through bad things.

Note: My alcohol consumption is actually quite low; I used to use drugs, but I haven't touched them for about 10 months now.

Note 2: It’s not just alcohol—this applies to everything: tobacco, e-cigarettes, porn, you name it.