>>184948
perhaps its not about -exactly- a hobby.
lets put it this way, perhaps, rather than focusing on
"enjoying something to a point i can do it over & over"
i propose something a little bit different.
i give you an example.
i had been a devourer of linguistic novelties and creative features, the field is quite vast and you will always find weird interesting stuffs just laying there waiting to be picked up. the lurking, is, so to say, -fun-.
but. then so it's only natural that a certain point i would want to learn another language.
now here's the thing. learning a language, especially a "hard" one, now THIS, is not exactly all thoroughly fun, unlike the thing i said earlier.
it's a long, long ardous process, i know it'll be years.
and it demands me to use it so often to the point that someday i wish it to be feel natural.
and you need to keep reminding yourself of the vision you have of a GOAL you set up for yourself.
so you have to continue on.
and it gets even more based if the goal you set up has NO UTILITY VALUE.
you just do it even though the world needs nothing of it anyway.

'hobby' is "easy", but this kind of 'devotion'
is something you might want to consider.
because you are uncomfortable of "not having something to devote myself to"
pick something even though you don't feel like you really care about at all,
something insignicant,
then spend EVERY SINGLE DAY working on it, whether hard or small efforts matter not, it's just that it must be OFTEN
and for a LONG LONG TIME
and you'll feel like "this is what i'm about" just because it's something you do all the time
just for the heck of it. not because you nor world "need" it.