i think many people that got a normal life with friends and a good family or a "good social life" (which by today standards means getting on 5 dates a week) live pointless lives. many of them feel more devoid of meaning that you realize but they often lack the self analysis you have.
personally i see the anormality i got not as a curse but as an opportunity to achieve something "different". i really don't see a point in living the life or beating the road everyone else does, so i might as well try different things? many people who changed stuff in society or made great contributions in all fields had a fuked up life and i think they kinda felt the same.
maybe it's cliched but try not to think about what everyone else is doing or what is "the normal experience" but what you like or would like to do without worrying about deviating from the "standard path" or pointing too high at the sky. and it's totally normal to have doubts, so hopefully this helps give you more motivation eventually