>>182388
after certain time you get so used to it, human contact is a burden and suffering

i was effectively an orphan most of my life, i dont liek human contact unless limited in time and scope and only with my dad or 2 friends i have

people dont feel human, more liek bots, and you are not a human you are text on my screen!

teh only tiemz i open up is when i ramble like on heyuri when i get too consumed with thoughts and drift off to realize that people are still listening, i usually cut it out fast and stay silent afterwards

i am not a part of any social media contact with anyone, i dont talk to anybody first, i dont have a single friend there, i pick loneliest chair, i speak and wear a formal way, i think i am robotic on labz when i have to cooperate with others, in real life i feel like it takes me ages to produce a sentence and i change words and stop in between often, i wonder what they think in their circles, probably not much
i shared bits of my ramblings when i drifted off and they did not take me seriously which made me think they are even less human, how can they not agree? i remember vividly one talking trash on ads and i responded why do you watch ads you make a choice to watch them why dont you just stop watching ads and there was silence, weird or one incident i forgot to wipe my nose from caffeine properly or one incident i talked trash on alcohol

in short i dont liek human contact, and you will probably too if you give it time