there are a few people who talk about drugs here... sorry to be yet another one. but I need advice from the sages and wisemen of Heyuri. I've got my monero, i've browsed dark web markets and found a reputable vendor (did my research on dread. not sure if i can mention the market here - its name is related to quantum physics for the knowers out there). I've set up the required PGP stuff and loaded my XMR into the site wallet. But I have a few questions...

First, I live in Europe and dont have a mailbox. I live in a giant apartment building in eastern europe. Anyone know how I should receive it with the least risk?

Secondly, I live alone. I am afraid that I'll go insane and gouge my own eyes out or something. I'm a pretty chill person but I've heard (scaremongers?) say you can fry your own brain and go crazy after just one trip... i don't have any friends that i would trust to babysit me either. Is it safe for me to be alone in my own room while tripping?