I'm a male and I find large breasts very attractive, but they also intimidate me. Actually adult women do in general. I am also a lolicon. I wish I could only be a lolicon, but I still experience attraction to adult women despite not wanting to. Sometimes my lust for lolis fades and I just need some big tiddies. But I start to feel anxious when I think about them. And if I do manage to face my fears and finish, I will feel extremely depressed afterwards. But lolis make me feel so happy and calm after, even confident. I've always been awkward and socially anxious but after jerking off to loli I can look a man in the eye and give him a firm handshake without any fear. If I've been jerking off to tiddies I will look at the ground and fumble with my words.

I am at the point where if I cannot get off to loli, I think I should just remain celibate. Yes, I know what you're thinking, and you're right. My mother was abusive and unstable. I reckon it to be the reverse of an Oedipal complex then. Yes I have sought therapy but dropped out for various reasons which, in retrospect were kinda dumb. But then I tried to return to the therapy and my former therapist (an adult woman no less), I feel, betrayed my trust and now I don't know what to do. I'm worse than ever.

I don't know why I'm posting this here. Just wanted to get it off my chest, no pun intended. I guess it would be nice if an adult woman were to sympathize with me. But I also might just be laughed at so I don't even know if I will ever look at this thread again after posting. If you are male and have a similar complex, I would also like to hear from you, although again, not sure if I'll even come back. Thanks to anyone who did read this whole post though, and I apologize for its length.