i have a clearly defined taste
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COVCVgjWn5A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkjegT04PzE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P-c7DgC7OA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=klTbxlzm5Uw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jq6gMC_5OlM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7GvSBh_q2I
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWS92RgqExM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0EEW068hRQs

but i like these too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPCkngtF2Eg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zryAXKG11WU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aXK4-RGf_k4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q2NQSamaphI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eizExKrnyR8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGuXLWd2Lc8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9m3qeiAgZvA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sxv9npXdyog
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTwK3fpi1wE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jlM6GsR38Ew
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHqdwhkwFag
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLz2CsN0NZU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-dzHDFhtLs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCltig4ky10
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Npi1zBo_VZA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGItZZ1U4_o
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ATQW5dE3wyA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_BVo6wFdqw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PguoOker-M
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVep2ICxJow
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sxv9npXdyog
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0mRGepqbMQw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6VwI4_CR4o
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShoO1cmi25g
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4xvk9PWiz8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBJRXVjntm8

blue rabbit very cute
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ae4dGFrYF6Y

I'm trying to guess my subconscious reasons for the taste
- Intensity, hard unreal sounds and very fine voices. Because it probably reminds my primal parts of brain of a will of life, action and perfection and ultimately not true constant power but passive control, which is power that is only revealed in necessity from hiding (rap is for people who subconsciously wish for constant and well known power, an opposite) which would stem from the below:
- Melancholy because it probably likes catharsis or being reminded of being powerless againist the entire world combined despite believing it is relatively significantly more powerful than most humans and organizations over which it could exert control if it wishes.
- Eerie elements like sound shift, voice ai, compression, disorted sounds, untuned instruments, many sounds that melt into one and other unreal or wrong elements. Probably related to the above, it likes to be reminded of a vast world and external forces that cannot be controlled by a single person, to which it must submit despite the ability to master a lot and resist a lot. Elemets that give off an impression of a cold environment, empty of anything, long empty corridors, very distant resonance, faraway echos.
- Trance to lose consciousness, drop identity and leave mentally, to drop fear and all worries for the surrounding. Because I almost exclusively live in my own head and not my surroundings and what I post on heyuri is as direct of my intimate thought as it gets, it tries to dissolve my ego. I didn't post much real trance but in general the more melancholic, sad and eerie the more I reach this point.

Any psychologist on heyuri? am I retarded?