>>168968
It was legit. Something inside me failed sooner than I hoped. If my symptoms don't improve soon I am going to a psychiatrist, they seem to improve by a very tiny bit daily or they evolve so I am hesitant yet, my whole body behaves retarded, I was feeling quite good a few days ago and now I suffer a whole lot, permanent migraine-like state
I will beg for lamotrigine since my mood swings like bipolar as well and it helps with migraine and static noise visuals, some antidepressants might help but there is so many of them that the doc will guess them just like me until something works, if they don't then klonopin. Klonopin seems to improve it with recent papers but I don't wanna cure a drug with another drug. Anti convulstans seem to ease visuals. Though honestly I feel very depressed and I am sure the origin is chemical. Two days ago I felt like a deity for two hours and everything mostly receeded, I went to sleep and woke up to static instead of wobbly vision and euforia was gone. My friend who does psychology says I am the most bipolar example of bipolar. I am still of good hope since everything slowly but eventually seems to improve, my vision was worse earlier today.

Evolution of my symptoms feels like coming off LSD. Migraine like visual disturbances and palinopsia are the first things you notice on an LSD comeup. Palinopsia during comeup is probably responsible for that low FPS vision alongside smooth vision, and since they are the first things that appear they might be last things before recovery (or I never recover getting stuck on them ).

I think I forgot to breathe today, I had to take a big sudden breath because I genuinely forgot to breathe in bed or so I think