>>168587
>I consciously do not fear emptiness and I know it to be correct but while I still am alive in a human form bound by human world then this experience b0rkz humanity, you no longer are a human or even alive.

For me, the realization of nothingness gave me peace through its singular clarity. I would rather accept a painful truth than a comforting lie. This place is illusion/maya, but that doesn't mean that there aren't great experiences and things to learn here. The goal is to be in the world, but not of the world.

When one is injured, there are two types of pain: The physical pain being felt, and the mental pain. The second kind of pain is a self-inflicted anguish - acceptance of this is Nirvana. The ultimate fear of the ego is the loss of ego - yet it is an important part of interacting with reality. It isn't something to be shucked away by any means, and it would be impossible to do so. Be like that dead Osiris whose remains were scattered across the corners of the earth by Sett, and ascended from his trial in the underworld with even greater strength. Jesus too, when he died for three days and three nights had descended into hell, had taken the keys from Satan himself and rose from the dead. Death is not something to be feared, for it is merely a doorway. It is possible to simultaneously have an ego and yet forsake its attachment. It's a paradox by nature, ineffable and divine. In the occult it's called 'the mysteries'


I won't lie to you, but from experience I know you're not screwed by any means. Your brain and your body have extraordinary healing abilities with a proper will. For a while I thought I would never get better too, but here I am. I recommend grounding techniques during those difficult transitory periods of life in the dark night of the soul. Cold showers and exercise are forms of yoga (yoga simply means 'to be one with the body') that I found particularly effective. It's quite difficult to have any sort of dissociative feelings in that state.

This is an issue I ran into quite frequently as I was too smart for my own good and would spend a great deal of time in my head. The goal is to get into that flow state, or Tao, through whatever means is suitable. Creating art, sojourns through nature, and what have you. Those are the things that life is about. Animals are the best observation of this, they suffer from none of our mental woes, a cat lives as a cat and does what a cat does. You can think, or you can do - you can't do both.