>>168567
Oh yes very much. Although it has been 3 or so years since I've last tripped so things have normalized to some degree, but it is simply one of those things that will never leave you. For better or worse, once your mind is open it cannot be fully closed. Such is the lot of the shaman class. With people that can't handle it, they can always go to jebus or something.

Also, you cannot be broken; there isn't a self to be broken in the first place (anatta). It's the conservation of mass, energy cannot be created nor destroyed. What is observed as self is particular rivers or streams of Karma that flow back into the same ocean. Rather than an outright denial of individuality or core essence, I simply find this paradox of selfhood to be a good reminder for non-attachment.