It's a long story, but basically I got a girlfriend for about a year and she was the closest a human being will ever be to me, had similar tastes and everything and understood me like no one else, but she got sick and died because of unhealthy life choices and hereditary health issues, now I remember perfectly that before her, I had no trouble being alone, and I was so self centered it was almost as if I saw myself as a fictional character to observe and not my real life, I even considered myself to have 0 attraction to 3d human beings, but now I'm depressed and feel really alone, I don't want someone else as I still don't feel attracted to real people, I just wish I could bring her back, but since I can't I'd like advice on being ok with being a loner again

(EMO KID WAS TOLD TO CHEER UP FOR THIS POST)